C o L o R s

me :
AQUA, TURQUOISE, GOLD
grapefruit red
magenta
red
neon green
neon red orange

figuring out the difference between turquoise and aqua, maybe they shouldn't even be categorized in the same place (will differentiate later)


t u r q u o i s e (aqua)
me
right
calm (energetic)
safe
liquid/flow
not unknown depths, safe depths, shallow water
consistency
energy
warmth
past present time connection
(essential color of childhood, most identifying color of now)
turquoise flat, aqua transparency
(pablo was also significantly turquoise, such an easy click)
not gendered
turquoise = flat, aqua = multilayered transparencies

l a v e n d e r
(with a pink hue) sweet, but not too so
a cool depth
(without a pink hue) nothing 'sweet' or young
wisdom
age
coolness
woman (in the sense of age, knowledge, like a therapist or elder, not femininity)
a more intellectual but intimately 'nature' color
semi flat
rectangular and long

d a r k b l u e (lots, maybe I have to divide into royal and midnight)
stability
safety
calm
bear
slow energy but continual motion
parents
profound depth, but simply accessible
a nearly graspable boyness, although not a “part of me,” but comforting closeness
(lapis, with gold flecks, adds the youth component, fast energy)
(fede mixed with dark green, my dad is also dark blue but mixed with hazel green)
(mom is dark blue, like an emerald, but solidly dark blue)
round, big, happy (deeper sadness)


b l a c k
everything possible
not me
separate
alluring yet un'relatable'
marit


w h i t e
presumed safety
actually coldness
depression
scary in its light
open arms
warmth
conflicting
blind


v i v i d g r e e n
growth
summer
warmth
neither safe or unsafe
unpredictable, growing moving fast
energetic
(most important color in adolescence, no longer relate)


p a l e y e l l o w
calm
peace
safety
also stagnation
danger like a yellowing page of a book
lost in time
windows (seeing out, but stuck within)
not a need for giant motion or movement
almost disappearing
(alex)


p a l e r o s e (light pink)
womb
outsides, not a deep depth
a soft enveloping warmth, different than a yellow light warmth, a deeper touch, into the tissue
safely female, not “feminine”
unrelated to time
(sometimes althea although only one component, but a specific specific althea feeling, or a color I learned from althea? Also conjures mariah)


m i d - r a n g e g r e y
softness
safe in its unsharpness
cozy, not necessarily warm, neither cool
unrelatable, semi-intrigueing, no danger
could never connect on a deep level, it would be all bones, the skeleton of a connection with no lasting sinew/links to create a real connection


b u b b l e g u m p i n k
disgust
distrust
fake
totally unrelatable
different realm of existence
square
flat solid


o r a n g e
bounce
excitement
so different than me
unpredictable but safe
young
also admirable
(sarah smith to a degree)



b r i g h t r e d (not blood red)
attractive
aggressive
fun
alive
not comforting
rich
safe in accents and portions
letters J and A
(josh, juan)



p u r p l e (plain, mid range, no richness, the gray kind)
dull
boring
flat
an even odd (the evenest, but still odd)
nothing back there I want to know
like bad pop clothes, like when h&m has bad colors and who are those people who buy even the bad stuff?
Skinny weak legs without shape or muscle in tights that look loose
cheap materials, but overwhelmingly boring


d a r k w o o d b r o w n
old
scary (history)
intriguing
long deep depths (often erased)
comfort
ungendered / male



COLORS THAT ARE NOT PART OF ME:
Brown
dark blue
bright red (maybe it is?)
dark green
black
pink (most)
pale blue (only eye color)
tan
dark purple, plum
maroon
orange